This week has seen a particular step change in how I am thinking, my approach to work and my training. Some bits for the better and others for the worse. It seems my every waking hour comes with the thought of what lies ahead. It has left me with a slightly reduced tolerance of 'faff' and trying to tick off all the things I feel I need to get ready before I leave for Europe. I am beginning to struggle what I am needing to get done in my working life and my training world. However, both need to happen. It is just a little annoying that work has been frustrating and stressful over the last few weeks. I just have to tell myself that the balance will return and it is only a few more weeks and then that element can be forgotten about for a few weeks.
I have had a few saving graces this week which have brought a smile to my face when I was struggling to find one and feeling a little alone in my struggle to balance things. One was from a friend coming training with me on Monday night and absolutely slogging her guts out with me on the river. For some reason having two of us crawling out of our boats was very satisfying and drove me to paddle as hard as I could. The saying of a true friend will jump on board with you was very true!
The second came from my Dad sending me a lovely email, telling me that whatever the result he was proud of me and what I have achieved. It gave me that boost required to keep pushing myself and made me feel quite emotional as I read it. I want to be able to finish the race and know I could not have done any more than I did, the results I hope will speak for themselves.
The last one which possibly was the most unexpected was receiving a letter asking me to open my village's Annual Games. It was unexpected and also made me realise there are more people behind my athletic quest than I can possibly imagine!
Now though it is time to get fuelled up and feed my body. Then it will be time for a hard four days of training on the estuary before my taper begins :o)